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    Friday, August 4th, 2006
    2:06 pm
    Obligatory angst
    Oh god. But my life is a burningpit of hell
    The hatred coiling inside me rings like a death knell
    Dark crimson tears splash on my hands and face
    Flaying flesh and burning bones, I alone know the wretched human race
    Woe is unto he he feels that there is any trace of joy
    In this bitter existance. I am but a toy.

    *snickers*
    and before anyone asks, no I'll never do this again, no I don't make a habit of it and no I'm not upset. Just amused at my own tr4gic g0thness.

    *snickers more*
    Wednesday, August 2nd, 2006
    11:15 pm


    create your own visited states map
    or check out these Google Hacks.

    Hoo-ha. I am State-emcompassing.

    Not 100% on all of those, though.. many a road trip in my past *sheepish grin*
    Wednesday, May 24th, 2006
    7:31 pm






    What Type of Changeling Are You? (Now Including Pictures for Each Kith)




    Pooka. You are fun loving, get along great with almost everyone, and like to show people how to laugh at themselves. You are a great listener, but sometimes your enthusiasm for a good prank may go a little too far. Overall you have a good time wherever you go or you just don't wan to go.
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    bwahaha.
    Friday, May 19th, 2006
    7:23 pm






    ~~Claim Your Wings - Pics and Long Answers~~




    You are one of the few out there whose wings are truly ANGELIC. Selfless, powerful, and divine, you are one blessed with a certain cosmic grace. You are unequalled in peacefulness, love, and beauty. As a Being of Light your wings are massive and a soft white or silver. Countless feathers grace them and radiate the light within you for all the world to see. You are a defender, protector, and caretaker. Comforter of the weak and forgiver of the wrong, chances are you are taken advantage of once in awhile, maybe quite often. But your innocence and wisdom sees the good in everyone and so this mistreatment does not make you colder. Merciful to the extreme, you will try to help misguided souls find themselves and peace. However not all Angelics allow themselves to be gotten the better of - the Seraphim for example will be driven to fighting for the sake of Justice and protection of those less powerful. Congratulations - and don't ever change - the world needs more people like you.Image Copyright Sheila Wolk (prints available through treefreegreetings.com) - words added by myself.
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    my wings were broken 2 years ago... I"m one of 2 percent to get this result.... Amusing..
    Saturday, May 13th, 2006
    5:19 am
    I think....
    I think..... I think I'm alive. Maybe.

    this is debateable.

    I wonder why it is that I keep trying, at times, to distance myself from my past and those who love me?
    It's not that I want to.
    I feel terrible when I do.
    but the cycle of guilt is reflexive..

    and repeated...

    it seems sometiems all I can do is say.. Hi. How are you? I'm sorry. I havn't spoken to you in ages. What's new? Me? Oh.. well *rambles at length about the novel's worth of events that have happened in the past 3 months/years that can either be skipped COMPLETLY and not mentioned, or MUST be explained at length* *light chitchat until someone needs to go. It was really great to see you again.. I"m sorry. Hopefully I'll see you soon. I"d like that.. I"m really trying not to hide anymore....

    Next day, they say "hey!" and I hide under my rock.

    Mayeb I worke d out all my social the previous day. maybe I don't know what to day. maybe I feel obligated to offer something. or pressured.

    I don't knwo why this is.

    I havn't picked up my phone in ages. dad said he was going to shut it off, though... because it wasn't being used. I was about to ask him to... he hasn't called me since then. I havn't called him..

    I love him and adore him endlesssly.. but for some reason I have trouble reaching out.

    this was part of my problem with Arsiei. I didn't reach enough and he was tire d of it. I don't want to talk about that.

    Maybe my problem is that I am with someone who understands the want to hide and be antisocial.. hwo NEEDs to be at points... and i am content to jsut curl up with him and be. but at the same time...

    bah. My broblem is that I am a bouncyloveeveryonewon'toubemyfriend wolf and a grumpyhideinmycave kitty all in the same body...

    I love you. all of you. even you who aren't reading this. just remember that. Even if youv'e changed. even if other things have happened. If nothing, absolutly nothing else... I love you for the good times we haev had.

    The sun's rising and I have a warm body to curl up with....
    Friday, August 6th, 2004
    9:37 pm
    9:35 pm
    quizes and dreams and things
    still alive. twitching on occasion....
    Freudian Inventory Results
    Genital (33%) you appear to have a pessimistic and regressive outlook on life.
    Latency (70%) you may be using learning as an escape from living.
    Phallic (30%) you appear to have negative issues regarding sexuality and/or have an uncertain sexual identity.
    Anal (40%) you appear to have a good balance of self control and spontaneity.
    Oral (66%) you appear to be overly passive and dependent, wanting things to be given to you instead of working for them.
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    Your LJ RPG Team
    LJ Username
    Sex
    Favorite Color
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    Your Partner ciro2hero
    Your Warrior dhauzimmer
    The Giggly, Flirtatious Magic User with Big Breasts dhauzimmer
    The Talking Animal cadrian
    Main Archenemy ciro2hero
    Evil Incarnate dhauzimmer
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    *eyes Dhau warily*


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    Your Name
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    Favorite Snack Food
    Your Job
    Yearly Salary $260,779.75
    Your Boss Thinks You deserve a raise
    Your Coworkers Think You should die
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    the fu-hell?
    I am flower named uneko !
    I consist of my friends!
    Are you flower too?
    Monday, August 2nd, 2004
    4:17 am
    3:34 am
    HASH(0x886fa4c)
    You're a Perfect Kiss. You and your best friend
    are a little more than friends now aren't
    you...? hehe


    What kind of Hot Boy Kiss are you??
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    godss, that's beautiful.

    still alive... kickign on occasion... must reply to emore email tommorow... more then likely will hvae time to.. .whee..
    Saturday, July 17th, 2004
    1:49 pm

    I am Strength

    Strength represents patience and compassion. Getting angry is easy when events turn sour, but dealing calmly with frustration takes great strength. So does accepting others and forgiving mistakes. We need strength to mold situations softly. The Chariot controls through mastery and authority. Card 8 is more subtle, even loving. Notice how the lion (itself a symbol of strength) is being guided and tamed by the woman's gentle hands.

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    My Best Friend is [info]ciro2hero
    Our 24 common interests are: anime, art, books, brechen sie das muster, daishi, dir en grey, fanfiction, hide-sama, j-rock, k-pop, levin, manga, my computer, pocky, psycho le cemu, rammstein, rock, roleplaying, shinya, shonen-ai, toshi, vampires, wolves, yaoi
    Who is your best friend?
    Username:
    Created by [info]macoto


    So... who's surprised? *clings to Ciro-kun*


    Who reads your LJ the most?
    LJ Username
    Biggest fan mihoshi23
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    Awww.. how sweet ;) *passes Miho an autograph (I miss you! sorry I've been so busy lately... I'll talk to you tonight, I hope)


    What do people really think of your LJ?
    LJ Username
    People think your journal doesn't have enough nudie pictures
    Actually hates you : mihoshi23
    Wants to be you : dhauzimmer
    Wants to get in your pants : frenziewolf
    Isn't a real person : ciro2hero
    Percentage of your journal that isn't boring - 83%
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    *eyesMiho, Dhau, Frenzie (even thoguh he wont read this...) and especially ciro o.o


    and uh.. yeah. this was suposed to be posted yesterday. but it wasn't.

    ... yup. work soon. fuckers.

    Love you all.

    ~The Sonic Drink Whore~
    Friday, July 16th, 2004
    2:17 pm
    I'm an apparently intelligent, liberal, not-too-generous, not-too-selfish, relatively well adjusted human being!
    What are you?
    Brought to you by Rum and Monkey

    *snorts*

    Slander!
    [info]cadrian and [info]mihoshi23 have been secretly doing it!
    [info]frenziewolf keeps a hamster for nefarious purposes!
    [info]cadrian saw something they shouldn't have in [info]larissafae's parents' bedroom...
    [info]uneko found bondage equipment under [info]cadrian's bed!
    [info]soirenoir found bondage equipment under [info]mihoshi23's bed, but [info]mihoshi23 claimed it belonged to [info]frenziewolf!
    [info]cadrian tried to rape the horses and ride off on the women, a newbie mistake.

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    More in... a minute probably. mwaha.

    BTW: Cubbi: I love you ^-^
    Friday, July 9th, 2004
    10:12 pm
    Great Jumping Paladins of Tyr! I'm done for...
    Take the quiz: "Which God or Goddess are you?"

    God of Darkness
    Seductive and, whether it's ture or not, HOT! You don't mind using what you got to take advantage of people, and you know you got it. You don't care what people think of you and wear your sexual orientation on your sleeve. You are the second piece to the ultimate divine being, combining darkeness with light makes the world live.

    Take the quiz: "Which Random Irish Gaelic Phrase Are You? "

    Pog mo thoin
    Pog mo thoin - 'Kiss my ass.'You're one tough bastard, and if anyone doesn't like it, they can kiss your ass. You enjoy fighting and causing grievous bodily harm. Hey! What are you lookin' at, punk?


    So who things those two are mildly inaqqurate? ... Po mo thoin. -_-

    Take the quiz: "Based on your star sign, how would you act as an animal? (Great Pictures)"

    Sagittarius
    -- Is very healthy ---- Possesses legs which are both strong and long ---- Is very active in a physical sense ---- Would rather roam the neighborhood than stay at home ---- Appears to possess an endless amount of energy ---- Is noble by nature ---- Is always in a good mood ---- Is not quick to pick a fight...although prone to become angry if provoked ---- Is quite vociferous ---- Has a short attention span...becomes bored easily and constantly looking for something different to do ---- Is affectionate, but only for short spurts of time ---- Is fearless and unafraid to take a risk or do something daring --

    Meow XD

    Take the quiz: "What type of Cat are you?"

    Funny Cat
    "You are a Funny Cat!" People think that you are hilarious! You can crack a joke as easy as walking. Most people love you dearly, but people that are the butt of your jokes don't feel the same way. Other than that, you are very loved.

    wheeeeeeeee
    Sunday, June 20th, 2004
    9:13 pm
    Some days I feel as though I could fly...
    Some days all I see is the sky...
    Some days... I feel like I'm falling.
    ...but I always know... no matter how far I fall..
    No matter how fast I plummet...
    No matter what I do, or say or feel...
    No matter what I feel...
    You'll always be there to catch me...

    I love you, Daddy.
    Wednesday, May 5th, 2004
    4:21 am
    I done did this once before... but.. I've created a buncha new characters sicne then... so.. why the hell not.

    Which of your Characters is:

    Part 1
    1. The Happiest?

    Happiest... eh.. Depends. Eavon is pretty happy in general. a touch moody at points, but generally he hasn't got much to complain about. BUt he's more of a content happy... Toshi is pretty genki happy all the time, even when he's down. Most everyone else ia hpapy with their soul mate... but few reach the level of genkiness Toshi has.

    2. The most Depressed and unhappy with life?

    Oh dear..
    Well.. space Levin is pretty depressed--until he meets Kaius... then he's pretty happy with life... most the time, anyway. Jei is.. really weird. he's probably the most depressed though... not that he fully knows it. Poor Jei kitty is fucked in the head and has a bizarre sence of viewing the world... his head is never quiet and at least part of him is upset all fof the time. WHen he should be most unhappy, more of himself is happy. at least until people start showing him the better sdie of life. but yeah.. Jei.
    Felan is decently unhappy also... though not deeply depressed.. shit happens... he's upset and he moves on, even as he cling sto hte past. Doens't bug him too much til peole start rubbing salt in his wounds and telling him they don't matter.

    3. Easily Gets angry?

    Daishi in any incarnation would be the easiest to get angry, I think... Space Shinya, Modern Shinya and Egypt Shinya can get angry pretty easily as well, but generally you need to be a huge idiot for that to happen. Space Levin, later on, has a rather firey temper... particularly where /his/ Kaius in concerned. Hiroji is a pissy bitch when he wants tobe.. though not as much as Felan..

    4. Would rather be alone most of the time?

    Space Levin was of this opinion for a long time.. Jei shares his opinion, largely. if he's alone, no one is hurting them... and that's a goo d thing, laregly. On the other hand... *cuts off Jei's ranble*
    Collin And Eavon both view the human race as idiots, by adnd large... however, Eavon has a bit of faith in min kind still.. and enjoys roaming though the locals and learning of this other species while collin blends only to survive.
    Felan is a loner by nature... but being that he is a wolf, will give in to pack-urges on occasion... you just need to be worthy of bieing in his pack... be you his alpha or under his alphaness.
    Yuki... Yuki is weird. He liesk being alone. it means he can think in peace... but then, he has no one to share his thoughts with.

    5. Annoying as hell?

    Toshi. Hes' way genki at poitns. depends on your opinion of him. Space Levin and Medern Levin can be annoying, though in different ways. Jei is definetly annoying if yo ubother to get to know him a bit.. Felan has a spick up his ass so huge the telephone poles are envious.. Yuki could be annoying if you let him get to you.

    6. Just a complete asshole?

    Space SHinya was an asshole. So was egypt Shinyal though he was more of a spoiled brat. Hiroji is an asshole also, as is Felan... thoughi n utterly different ways.

    7. Would jump in front of a Bullet to save their Friends?

    Levin. Don't fuck with his friends. Ditto Daishi. Ditto any of the boys, actually, but Modern Daishi especially. Jei would be too afraid of the bullet and confused abotu what to do and argueing with himself to jump (though give him a few years...).... Eavon would take the bullet. it takes a rare person to gain title of friend... but he can heal himself more eaily then another.. Felan is very loyal to those he's loyal to.. Yuki..... if Yuki would.. if he considered a person as friend....

    8. Shy and not very talkative?

    msot Levins live on the quieter side of things, as is Shinya.. Space levin is especially shy. Jei is very quiet and easily frighted.. he won't talk to you unlessy ou make him.

    9. Full of themselves?

    daishi at points... but in goofnatured "i'm aware of myself and what my strong poitns are' sorts of ways. Shinya knows he's a rich bo and it sheos sometimes. Toshi knows he's sexy. Toshi takes the cake on this one. Eavon also knows he's pretty, but isn't full of himself...

    10. Always ready for fight?

    daishi, always. Modern daishi especially. Space Levin to degrees... especially where Shinya or Kaius is involved. Hiroji has no issues with fighting... Eavon would fight if he had to... and is always prepared... but wouldn't want to. Felan is lawyas prepe d for battle also.

    11. Would find the best way to avoid a fight?

    Levin, unless you fucked with his friends. then you die. Shinya is very diplomatinc and owuld talk his way out. Jei would hide from any mention of a fight, likely... Eavon would try to make peace as best he can before tying to kick ass... Yuki wouldn't care about the fight.. he'sd sorta find something else to thinkabout.

    12. Needs Company 24/7?

    Toshi, in ways. more ofr less depending on incarnation. Jei probably does best with someone he cares about around.

    13. Loves the sound of their own voice?

    Toshi!

    14. Trys to be the leader of the pack?

    Felan, duh. he's the wolf, yo. Shinya is a decent leader also.. but neither is Daishi. Hiroji has leadership skills also..

    15. Wanting revenge

    Collin, perhaps. darulan may eventually. my characters arn't very vengant.

    Part 2
    1. Who is your Main Character?

    This isn' ta a fair question... Levin is me... my soul.he has alot of my mannerisms and attitude... or Tokyo Levin does.. they.. all are main characters in ways, but.. oh hell:

    Tokyo Levin - My soul. me in most respects. Attitude and mannerisms are closest to mine.
    Shinya - My attitude. my superior self who's better then most, or so it beleives. vaguely spoiled.
    Toshi - My pervert. everyoen needs one of them.
    Daishi - My strength. Power. Loyalty,
    Egypt Shinya - The irrational bastard in myself.
    Space Levin - the part of me that needs care... and is vicious in ways under provokement.
    Modern Levin - my little boy. brilliant light shining.. knowswhat I want and goes for it.
    Modern Daishi - My bleeding heart.
    Jei - ... the part of me that espects to one day be diagonosed as DID/MPD. The terrified, fightened part of my sould that needs love and care... The volitile ever changing part of me that swings aroudnd between extreemes, all while being small, terrified and upset... the part of me that believes it needs to be hurt to be worth anything... and so much more.
    Hiroji - My bastard. and my pervert. My seme pervert, that is.
    Eavon - My pure heart. the part that has feaith in man.the part that wants o help...
    Felan - My vicious pain. my transformation. My vengance.
    Darulan - the part of my soul that obeys... that iw told things... abd dies without question, regardless of feelings... one day he'll snap.. one day..
    Yuki - my poet. my artist.. my stoned philosepher in my soul..

    2. Who are He/She's best friend/s?

    I'll pretend I jsut ansewred levin before, though...
    Tokyo - Shinya
    Egypt - SHinya
    Space- Kaius, Kaius and... sometimes Toshi and Daishi.
    modern - kaius. ^^

    3. Does He/She have a GF/BF/Married?
    Kaius. Always. Kaius is his and he is kaius'.

    4. Does He/She have a rival? If so are they a friendly rival and do they hate each other with a passion?

    shinya in Space.. and modern to a depress... beyond that, not really. Modern isa brotherly thing... in space he tries hard to not hate..

    5. Does your main char represent the r/l you?

    Yes. alot of yes.

    6. What character are you really proud you created?

    all of them. they's my babies.

    7. Do you think about your chars alot?

    All the damn time....

    8. Do you ever wish you could meet your chars in r/l?

    Yup. I wouldn't mind being them, either.. *sihgs wistfully*

    9. Do you remember the momment you created your first Char?

    yep... *cuddles Levi*

    10. Is Originality important to you when creating a Character?

    depends. sometiems yes soemtiems no. generally yes.

    11. Do you ever look at somebody's character and wish it was yours?

    all the time. or that I could interact with them myself rather then RP anther char with them...

    12. Can you see yourself keeping this up in the future?

    Thinking of not RPing in the future frightenens me deeply. I need my boys..

    Current Mood: sleepy
    Tuesday, May 4th, 2004
    3:52 am
    you... are the only thing....
    Close your eyes
    Let me touch you now
    Let me give you something that is real
    Close the door
    Leave your fears behind
    Let me give you what you're giving me
    You are the only thing
    That makes me want to live at all
    When i am with you
    There's no reason to pretend
    That when i am with you i feel flames again
    Just put me inside you
    I would never ever leave
    Just put me inside you
    I would never ever leave
    You....

    Current Mood: indescribable
    Current Music: VAST - Flames
    Monday, April 12th, 2004
    9:39 am
    fallen2
    Your wings are BROKEN and tattered. You are
    an angelic spirit who has fallen from grace for
    one reason or another - possibly, you made one
    tragic mistake that cost you everything. Or
    maybe you were blamed for a crime you didn't
    commit. In any case, you are faithless and
    joyless. You find no happiness, love, or
    acceptance in your love or in yourself. Most
    days are a burden and you wonder when the
    hurting will end. Sweet, beautiful and
    sorrowful, you paint a tragic and touching
    picture. You are the one that few understand.
    Those that do know you are likely to love you
    deeply and wish that they could do something to
    ease your pain. You are constantly living in
    memories of better times and a better world.
    You are hard on yourself and self-critical or
    self-loathing. Feeling rejected and unloved,
    you are sensitive, caring, deep, and despite
    your tainted nature, your soul is
    breathtakingly beautiful.

    Image is a painting by Natalya Nesterova,
    source:ca80.lehman.cuny.edu/.../
    images/fallen_angel.jpg


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    wow. I supose tha'ts what I get for having a moodswing mid quiz...





    I'm exceptionally artistic!

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    shocking...





    I am Rumpelstiltskin!

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    yeah. Stuff.

    It amuses me who easily I can mood swing between extremes sometimes. I can be such a sad little person sometimes. Probably a good thing I wasn't the typical teen else I might have killed myself by this point over something retarded, like a broken doughnut or something.

    Current Mood: Wing-like in ways
    Sunday, March 28th, 2004
    10:45 pm
    Ha ha!
    In the spirit of random posts...

    so.. who the heck out there actually reads this thing. Go ahead, reply, give me a post that says 'yo.' ;) I'm honestly curious.

    in other randomocity: the kitties re eating my shoelaces again.

    Current Mood: contemplative
    Saturday, March 20th, 2004
    4:00 pm
    Life...
    ...is toasty. and hickory scented.

    Current Mood: smokey
    Current Music: ICP - Panic Attack
    Tuesday, March 16th, 2004
    5:58 pm
    Life...
    ...is pretty damned good. ^-^

    and that's all I have to say about that.

    Current Mood: happy
    Saturday, March 13th, 2004
    5:39 pm
    Whee.
    I love people. Note the sarcasm.

    Whee~! Peek here



    I took the What Mythological Creature Are you? test by
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    My inner Unicorn is amused.

    more stuff that is spammy-like... )

    Current Mood: blah
    Current Music: Nothing. Traffic. keyboards. Whee
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